"So before I began this journey, I was somebody who definitely made a lot of progress in terms of my sexuality and my relationship to sex and intimacy. However, I definitely still had some tendencies to use sex as a form of instant gratification or feeling better, and also to think my way into pleasure rather than feel my way into it."

"I think the single biggest thing that I learned about myself is that I'm a very determined motherfucker when it comes to this stuff, because so much resistance has come up for me. There are so many different coping mechanisms, parts of me, protectors, that are kind of like finding all these ways to numb me out."

"I'm also a couple of months deep into my longest recovery streak. And it feels very empowering. I'm finally getting to meet parts of myself that I think were suppressed by the amount of porn that I've consumed. And it's an experience that's like no other. It feels like a rebirth."

"Really allowed me to fundamentally shift my relationship with my own sexuality. Moving from a mindless reactionary state where I used masturbation and porn activity to avoid feeling anger, shame, frustration, and boredom to moving into this poised, mindful, responsible place where I look at pleasure practices as an opportunity to connect with my own body."

"To a younger version of myself to motivate him to take action, I would say [...] Are you doing it alone motherfucker or are you actually in community - iron sharpening iron? Are you actually talking with other men who can inspect you and calibrate you and hold you to your commitment, to your word? This container is that it's a mask off, vulnerable conversation about the things men don't talk about."

"I joined his NoNutNov semen retention challenge and mens group. At the time I was smoking a bunch of weed. I was feeling really overwhelmed. Agitated. My sexual life was not the greatest. I was also still experiencing relapses with pornography. Learning the sexual transmutation practices and having a safe container with other men had me feeling like I wasn't alone. Sharing challenges was immensely helpful and supportive."

"Before this course, I didn't really have an understanding of utilizing sexual energy. And if I'm honest, I chose to be willfully ignorant in order to not take responsibility for it."

"The biggest takeaway I had about myself through this process was realizing how much my own religious background had moralized and brought shame into my life around how I think about sex and sexuality and porn."

"The person I was before starting was someone who didn't fully believe in his ability to be the master of his domain, and to be completely in control of his energy. I was someone who was easily distracted. Not just like women and things of a sexual nature, but things like other people and their energy. I was someone who was easily distracted and controllable in some way."

"Prior to Retain Your Life Force, I lacked a lot of focus and clarity and drive. I was in a very impatient state, kind of like I was emotionally dysregulated fairly often. But during the process, I came to really see how dysregulated my life has become, while finding focus on who I am and the direction of my life has really changed the dynamics of my relationship with my wife and given me a firm foundation on which I can be a safe, strong, loving, present husband and father."

"I can still approach this work and come out I would say one of the things I'm most proud of is the fact that at age 71, I can still approach this work and come out differently, positively, in ways I never had imagined. Some of the experiences I had over the last months altogether have been much more difficult and transformational than some of the work I've done during ayahuasca over the last nine years. So I'm very grateful to learn that sexuality isn't just about how we relate to women, but it's how we relate to ourselves.

#NoNutNovember was just superb. For instance, the massage gun has really helped me to gain confidence. [...} So that's my biggest takeaway, surrendering to the bodily intelligence that my body has to resolve issues."

"The single biggest thing I learned about myself in this process is that this thing, sexuality, is way more than I ever realized it to be. I utilized it as either an outward-focused energy with others, or as a source of confusion and shame. Or as a source of distraction and stress relief. And it turns out, it's this massive force to be utilized in so many beautiful ways."

"Most of us hide away from our sexual shadow. The pain that lives within. The grossness. The disgustingness. I was deeply addicted to pornography. It fucked with my life tremendously. His work is so so helpful. So necessary."

"If I was going to motivate a younger version of myself, I would really encourage myself to get up earlier, to take some time for myself when I get up and to wake my body up."

"I found that to be the most enjoyable part this year, was the wide open acceptance of connecting with all of the other men who are in this space. Because that is so rare, if not completely unheard of in a lot of group coaching, (for anything, anything at all… fitness, business, anything.) Most people don’t end up getting connected with the majority of the people they’re going through the same program with. So the self-acceptance and the connection were the two biggest things that really helped me this year.”